Wow, just wow. what is wrong with people? Well, I do know what is wrong with people, I just did not know that it would be as bad and as quickly as it has become.

We had some fool run his car into a rally which killed one person as I type this, and I stepped away from the FB group that I used to run because people just can’t get alone, or refuse to get along, who knows.

I know there are a number of people that do not see things as I do but that is fine, my faith does not require them to.

The signs of Jesus’ return points to it happening sooner than later and the sad thing is that a lot of people that I know will not make the Rapture much less make thought the Tribulation.

I pray that those who are left behind figure it out really quickly, but there will be those that will harden their hearts and no matter what they see they will not change.

I weep for those.

I pray for the self-haters, I pray for those who live in a state of anger and denial, I pray for those with addictions, I pray for those who are shut in, I pray for those who have nowhere to stay, I pray for those who have no one, I pray for the afflicted, and I pray for those in pain, physical, mental, & spiritual.

I pray for those I love, even if I do not like you right now, I pray for my family, both those by blood and those who either I have adopted or they adopted me.

I pray for those who have hurt me and betrayed me.

Most of all I pray for my son.



Well, it is just another late night and I am up because my mind will not settle down. Racing thoughts are the bane of anyone’s sleep.

One of the first things I must write is that Caleb, I love you and think about you daily, there are many reasons why I do not see you as much as I am sure that you would like and I pray that we will be able to sit down and just have a long conversation.

Now to business, you may wonder why I titled this little post ‘Why?’

Well, that is probably the best question one may ask.

I have had some losses these last few weeks and it seems that in my life, all the good things, or at least the things that I see as good, has been taken away from me.

And there are days that I genuinely do not know why.

I have not been a saint and I am sure that is one of the reasons, but why Lord?

Have I been that unworthy that I cannot be happy for any stretch of time?

Why are you testing me?

And being the idiot that I am I cannot see the why right now.

What is my why? I do not know anymore.

I try and not dwell in the past, but I keep getting haunted by dreams, the last vivid one was my brother and I watching a red meteor hit Earth and all this dust was kicked up then we had to hide from these creatures that just popped out of nowhere.

What does that mean?

Enough for now, my eyes are getting heavy. Maybe I will be able to sleep after all this.

Good night all and God bless.

Another wonderful rant.

I put these thoughts down and while I do I, at times dwell on the why.

Which brings me to today’s post.

Do people out there today know their why? In this day and age? I wonder in this day of instant gratification and short attention span. We have social media which a lot of times let us post our foolishness for the world to see, and I do literally mean the world.

When someone becomes upset in this day and age, they pull out their phone or computer and let the denizens of Cyberspace know their thoughts and emotions. Lots of times without thinking of the possible consequence.

And it is not just the average person but celebrities do it all the time, while people do get hacked online and stars I am sure are more of a target, but they also post some amazing thoughts in the heat of the moment which at times they regret later.

One becomes angry over something and at times those things that actually made us mad really were not the worth the effort that was expended in the first place. Then they post some kind of commentary then hit send.


Well, as of this writing I have two stories published in a unique anthology with two more stories coming up in two other anthologies.

Four stories, three more than I ever dreamed of.

I still am stunned about it,

I am a Published Author!!

Thank you, GOD, for letting me achieve a dream in the midst of a challenging life, made that way from my own inane choices.

Living with pain.

Dealing with chronic pain is not a fun way to live, even more so when your body metabolizes pain killers so quickly that to have the therapeutic effect that the average person would have is about 15 times the normal dosage. For example, I was given Dilaudid, which is one of that strongest legal painkillers at 4mg for, at the minimum 4 hours, that dosage lasts me about 5 minutes. For it to last me 4 hours, I would have to take about 15 pills which would damage my liver and my kidneys. So I have learned to focus past the pain and try to function as best that I can, also I do not let others know the level of pain that I am in because most do not understand, which also backfires at times where people think I am faking it to avoid working. I am not the only one who suffers like this, people with MS go through a hard time and so do people who suffer from Lyme Disease.

At this point in time, there are no cures for any of these issues and it is frustrating, so please if you hear or see someone suffering from a chronic condition, a little compassion, please.


This what I do not like about election time and this election, in particular, it is making people who have known for years, ugly.

Very ugly.

And it is not just one person, and not with just one candidate, it is a number of you, on both sides.

This is why I am going to try and stop making commentary about the candidates.

Some of you are so obsessed with your favorite that it seems that in your posts, they cannot do anything wrong, and if they did? You will not admit to it.

Trump is no saint, neither is Clinton, nor Stein or Johnson.
Neither is Obama, or Bush, or anyone before them in recent memory.

This change I am seeing in people is actually frightening.

I am praying for you all.

Good night and may God bless you.

Signs of the times…

Hello all, it has been a long time and I am sorry that I have not kept up on this as I should have but that is the past and we should be concerned about the present and more so the future.

People have become very ugly theses days, more so with the bruhaha going on with the current elections. I honest thought it would not be as bad as the last one, but I was wrong. This election has become a catalyst for some very disturbing emotions and thought processes.

If you vote for A, you are a racist, if you vote for B, you are stupid.

What the hell?

What has happened to us? Respect for our fellow human being has hit an all time low and the way it is looking, the bar will go even lower.

And that is just the elections, we have cops killing innocent people because of their color, disturbed individuals taking lives for the strangest of reasons, banks committing fraud and the upper levels of management get away with a slap on the wrist and one hell of a bonus check and raising prices for essential medication that people just cannot afford.

And that is just a small list, and that is just here in the states. I can go on with what is happening around the world.

Why you may ask, why are things happening?

Capitalism in some instances, racism, religion, and ignorance in others.

But I can sum it all up in just one word…..hate.

There is a lot of hate and apathy today.

People just do not care about other people, and it is very sad, and like I said before, it is going to get worse.

End Times people, that is what I think is going on.

This is why I have begun to reach out to people I have not spoken too in a long time, to ask for forgiveness and/or to forgive them because in my humble opinion is truly short.

Also if you are not right with God, do not wait because signs are pointing to something big to happen to this planet and it is coming soon.

As a famous line said, “Something wicked, this way comes..”

If you do not believe, please at least consider it.

I pray for all of you.

God bless and make some time to make someone smile or even laugh, I bet you someone you know needs it, or maybe a simple hug, Lord knows I need one.

Have a great day.